Current mood:	curious
Current music:	the Turncoats - demo thingy

Rained out.

See, I used to have some wild aversion to techno music, which is kind of funny since a good chunk of what I listen to now (that isn't classical music) could be loosely classified under techno.

Probably the best example of my irrational dislike of that 'genre' was one time at Kenny's, I remember reading an interview with Shirley Manson of Garbage, and she made some comment about how, in the production of their self-titled CD, she had insisted on there being some techno sort of things in there. See, back then that had scared me, as if I was afraid that I would catch some kind of disease. I liked Garbage, and they might be techno? God forbid.

I'm not even 100% certain of why I didn't like techno so much back then, but I do have an idea - at that point in my life, I was making quite a huge effort, well, to fit in with the outsiders. So to speak. And (as I recall) as techno wasn't really... what we/they listened to... You see where this goes. Although I don't think that's all of it, the point still somewhat stands.

A few years later, at Matt and Casey's place once I was talking with Robin and she commented on how she admired that back in high school, I had always been exactly who I wanted to be which even then I found somewhat funny how other people's perceptions of me were not quite the same as my own of myself. I mean, by the time she had graduated I had already started distancing myself from that crowd and was making at least a half-hearted attempt to 'discover' myself, but even so. During at least the first two years of high school, I most emphatically was not exactly who I wanted to be - I was trying to be who I thought other people would want me to be. Good fun.

But these two musings bring up something else - although I can see a very clearn, continuous (ie the inverse image of V in T_Y is in T_X) change of who I've been from then until now, there is still quite a huge change. Seriously, I wonder what me 8 years ago would think of me now - I mean, I listen to techno, I'm a working stiff during the summer who drives a clunky old ford truck and is up every morning at 6am... As much as I didn't really have much of a sense of what I wanted to be back then, I don't think where I've ended up is ever where I would have pictured myself ending up.

So what would me 8 years ago think of me now?

And, out of curiosity, if any of you X years ago could meet you now, what do you think their reactions would be?